self-hatred

Now that we are in the new year of 2023 -

why do I still feel hopeless to live?

Now that I should have achieved my dreams, why do I still feel not enough?

Part of me is loving whatever milestones I had achieved, despite my conditions, despite whatsoever things running in my head but -

part is me is still extremely hating myself, for born this way.

I hate myself. I hate myself so much. I do.